TrUsT

People ask me why it's so hard to trust people ,
And i ask why is it so hard to keep a promise....

You see that girl , yeah her
She seems so invisible right
But just touch her and she'll flinch
She has a secret and she trust no one
She's the perfeect example of betrayal.
Cause everyone she trusted , broke her.
I'll start letting my guard down when people stop Giving reason to keep it up.
She has secrets you'll never know or understand ,
She appears so strong on the outside ,
But on the insideher world is spinnin upside down.
She's smiling and standing tall to the outta world
She's crying and breaking down in her Inner world.

She appears so happy to her mates ,
But alone , she shares her tears with her pillow.
She knows not to get her hopes up ,
As they always come crashing down.
She's heard it all before and felt it all.
She's ecperienced more than her fair share...
One touch, and she'll flinch
One harsh word and she'll cry
One bad moment , and she'll break down.

She trust no one , because the people she has believed ,
 Hurt her and leave her to pick up the pieces.
She believes no one because the people she has , lie and Betray her.....
So from now she'll keep everythng to herself and pretend
Everythng is okay , when everythng is wrong.
I know this girl , because this girl is..........

SlOwLy...!!

Slowly drowining in my sorrows
Wishing things would be better tomorrow
Feeling like I'm in an ocean of doubt and despair,
Gradually sinking and gasping for air
Knowing life is not a light switch, you can flip on and off
Simply sitting and accepting I have to carry on
Trying to keep my sanity and composure intact out of fear oh how
Those close to me, might react.
Fears of inadequacy as a human, as a women , burry themselves deep in my head
As I make a foolish attempt to hav a good night's rest in my lumpy bed.
Due to the fact that there are others out there ten times better than I ,
Makes me afraid and let out defeated signs, since it seems like things
Will always be this way...,
Its frustrating because I hav to go through it day after day
Yet , when my boundries are more than I can bare,
I can atleast take comfort in those who really care.
You know who you are , and so do I
That knowledge keeps me from going over the edge ,
From giving up and giving in....!!

whiplash

EyEs oF sILeNcE !!

Some have eyes of silence
That watch but do not speak
They keep what they know bottled up inside
Along with a need , their hearts to seek
Do they see , feel , love , cry??
Those silent eyes never tell
You can gaze deep inside , but you'll never see
Those silent eyes that live in their own hell.
Just what makes a person lock all emotions deep inside ,
To stand alone deep within their own minds.
Never reaching out , to touch another,
Because the fear inside , renders them blind.
One day those eyes of silence
May suddenly call out,
When lonliness overtake the fear itself ,
And overules all doubt.. !!

MY LIFE...!!

There's ups and downs,
And cheers and frowns
Life ain't so right,
I dont hav a decent
Car, boat, nor a plane
But ain't such a pain;
I never worry about
Parking spots nor
Traffic jams, nor any
Oil collision problems.
I don't live in a
Mansion that's ten
Miles end to end
It ain't all bad....
I don't need another
Car just to get to
My nine door garage.
I don't need binoculors
Too see who rang my bell.
I am not a billionaire,
Not even a millionaire too..
But you see, i dont mind,
Rich ain't great at all.
I maine carrying millions
Of one dollar bills !!
My wallet ain't that thick.
You see my life ain't
No fairy tale.
Its really really sucks.
No giddy endings
Nor flying dragons
Nor enchantments alike
I haven't even
wrote a book..!!

StOp LiViNg In ThE pAsT...!!

Just becoz u made a mistake and regret , dosen't mean that you should beat yourself up beacuse of it for the rest of your life....
just think about this for a moment how many times have you done something in your past that you weren't too happy ?? it could be anything
let's say you are an addicted person . you may be addicted to drugs or alcohol or wrong type of person. It dosent matter what the circumstances may be. hey its dosen't even have to be harsh.....
Infact you have startd your own bussiness or created something in your life where you could make a living or somithing you are passionted about and it faild , so you gave up. It dosen't really matter. but every time you turn around , you are falling victim to the same thing over and over again . It happens - WE FALL DOWN . But the good thing is, We Get Up . J ust because you fell down dosen't mean you have to stay down . Get Up !
Why are you still sitting there?? we all make mistakes . but the best part it is that God allow us an opportunity to learn from our mistakes and move forward.
If you fall down today it dosen't mean that tomorrow you remain down.
Have you Ever slipped out in public and actually fell down?? jumped up real quick , didnt you? The next thing you did was look around and pray that nobody saw you. Just as quick as you bounced up from real fall ,  you can bounce back from a figurative fall.
One thing i have noticed from speaking to different people is that , they understand the We Fall Down Part and , generally , when they do fall down , they simply stay there or let their fall stop them from moving forward . They have never learned the                      ' But We Get Up' part. No matter what the circumstances are in your life that might have trippled you up , no matter what you have been through , no matter what happned in your past , you can always Get Up and make changes , right now that will forever banish or make obsolete , the bad things that caused you to fall in the past....
Dont get me wrong . I hear some very legitimate sounding excuses as to why people feel that their life will forever be the way that it presently may be . We All Fall Down . but remember ," A Saint is ajust a sinner who fall down and get up. Get Up . Dont live in the past! Your past should be a reference point , not a residence. But so many of us continuously live in the past . Its like we went out and bought a welcome mat and promptly placed it at the door of your past... We can't break away from it . We wearing it as some sort of badge of honour because we simply wont let it go....
It Dosent matter if you made 2 mistakes or 3 Heck , It dosent even matter if you made over a million mistakes in your life. What matter is today ,right now . You know the mistake that you have made because that mistake you have it as you reference point now and for the rest of your future life... but you can change your residence . Move out pack you bag and throw away that welcome mat because , right now , you made the decision to change. You have decided that your life is worth fighting for. You realise that you are a child of god and , therefore , worthy of all that is already yours by divine right.
You weren't born for sorro. You weren't born to be a doormate for others to wipe their feet on. You weren't born to infect you body wid chemicals that take you outside of yourself. You weren't born for any of that. You were born to glorify God and live happy and abudant life.And if you aren't living that way , it's simply because at some poin , you fell. But now forget the past... it's time to get up and start living the life you were born to live.....!!

EvErYbOdY's TaKe

Everybody was asked to do it.Everybody was sure that somebody would do it.Anybody could have done it.But nobody did it.Somebody got angry about that because it was everybody's job.Everybody thought that anybody could do it.Nobody realised that Everybody wouldn't do it. It ended up that everybody blamed Somebody when actually nobody blamed anybody.....!!