TrUsT

People ask me why it's so hard to trust people ,
And i ask why is it so hard to keep a promise....

You see that girl , yeah her
She seems so invisible right
But just touch her and she'll flinch
She has a secret and she trust no one
She's the perfeect example of betrayal.
Cause everyone she trusted , broke her.
I'll start letting my guard down when people stop Giving reason to keep it up.
She has secrets you'll never know or understand ,
She appears so strong on the outside ,
But on the insideher world is spinnin upside down.
She's smiling and standing tall to the outta world
She's crying and breaking down in her Inner world.

She appears so happy to her mates ,
But alone , she shares her tears with her pillow.
She knows not to get her hopes up ,
As they always come crashing down.
She's heard it all before and felt it all.
She's ecperienced more than her fair share...
One touch, and she'll flinch
One harsh word and she'll cry
One bad moment , and she'll break down.

She trust no one , because the people she has believed ,
 Hurt her and leave her to pick up the pieces.
She believes no one because the people she has , lie and Betray her.....
So from now she'll keep everythng to herself and pretend
Everythng is okay , when everythng is wrong.
I know this girl , because this girl is..........

SlOwLy...!!

Slowly drowining in my sorrows
Wishing things would be better tomorrow
Feeling like I'm in an ocean of doubt and despair,
Gradually sinking and gasping for air
Knowing life is not a light switch, you can flip on and off
Simply sitting and accepting I have to carry on
Trying to keep my sanity and composure intact out of fear oh how
Those close to me, might react.
Fears of inadequacy as a human, as a women , burry themselves deep in my head
As I make a foolish attempt to hav a good night's rest in my lumpy bed.
Due to the fact that there are others out there ten times better than I ,
Makes me afraid and let out defeated signs, since it seems like things
Will always be this way...,
Its frustrating because I hav to go through it day after day
Yet , when my boundries are more than I can bare,
I can atleast take comfort in those who really care.
You know who you are , and so do I
That knowledge keeps me from going over the edge ,
From giving up and giving in....!!

whiplash

EyEs oF sILeNcE !!

Some have eyes of silence
That watch but do not speak
They keep what they know bottled up inside
Along with a need , their hearts to seek
Do they see , feel , love , cry??
Those silent eyes never tell
You can gaze deep inside , but you'll never see
Those silent eyes that live in their own hell.
Just what makes a person lock all emotions deep inside ,
To stand alone deep within their own minds.
Never reaching out , to touch another,
Because the fear inside , renders them blind.
One day those eyes of silence
May suddenly call out,
When lonliness overtake the fear itself ,
And overules all doubt.. !!

MY LIFE...!!

There's ups and downs,
And cheers and frowns
Life ain't so right,
I dont hav a decent
Car, boat, nor a plane
But ain't such a pain;
I never worry about
Parking spots nor
Traffic jams, nor any
Oil collision problems.
I don't live in a
Mansion that's ten
Miles end to end
It ain't all bad....
I don't need another
Car just to get to
My nine door garage.
I don't need binoculors
Too see who rang my bell.
I am not a billionaire,
Not even a millionaire too..
But you see, i dont mind,
Rich ain't great at all.
I maine carrying millions
Of one dollar bills !!
My wallet ain't that thick.
You see my life ain't
No fairy tale.
Its really really sucks.
No giddy endings
Nor flying dragons
Nor enchantments alike
I haven't even
wrote a book..!!

StOp LiViNg In ThE pAsT...!!

Just becoz u made a mistake and regret , dosen't mean that you should beat yourself up beacuse of it for the rest of your life....
just think about this for a moment how many times have you done something in your past that you weren't too happy ?? it could be anything
let's say you are an addicted person . you may be addicted to drugs or alcohol or wrong type of person. It dosent matter what the circumstances may be. hey its dosen't even have to be harsh.....
Infact you have startd your own bussiness or created something in your life where you could make a living or somithing you are passionted about and it faild , so you gave up. It dosen't really matter. but every time you turn around , you are falling victim to the same thing over and over again . It happens - WE FALL DOWN . But the good thing is, We Get Up . J ust because you fell down dosen't mean you have to stay down . Get Up !
Why are you still sitting there?? we all make mistakes . but the best part it is that God allow us an opportunity to learn from our mistakes and move forward.
If you fall down today it dosen't mean that tomorrow you remain down.
Have you Ever slipped out in public and actually fell down?? jumped up real quick , didnt you? The next thing you did was look around and pray that nobody saw you. Just as quick as you bounced up from real fall ,  you can bounce back from a figurative fall.
One thing i have noticed from speaking to different people is that , they understand the We Fall Down Part and , generally , when they do fall down , they simply stay there or let their fall stop them from moving forward . They have never learned the                      ' But We Get Up' part. No matter what the circumstances are in your life that might have trippled you up , no matter what you have been through , no matter what happned in your past , you can always Get Up and make changes , right now that will forever banish or make obsolete , the bad things that caused you to fall in the past....
Dont get me wrong . I hear some very legitimate sounding excuses as to why people feel that their life will forever be the way that it presently may be . We All Fall Down . but remember ," A Saint is ajust a sinner who fall down and get up. Get Up . Dont live in the past! Your past should be a reference point , not a residence. But so many of us continuously live in the past . Its like we went out and bought a welcome mat and promptly placed it at the door of your past... We can't break away from it . We wearing it as some sort of badge of honour because we simply wont let it go....
It Dosent matter if you made 2 mistakes or 3 Heck , It dosent even matter if you made over a million mistakes in your life. What matter is today ,right now . You know the mistake that you have made because that mistake you have it as you reference point now and for the rest of your future life... but you can change your residence . Move out pack you bag and throw away that welcome mat because , right now , you made the decision to change. You have decided that your life is worth fighting for. You realise that you are a child of god and , therefore , worthy of all that is already yours by divine right.
You weren't born for sorro. You weren't born to be a doormate for others to wipe their feet on. You weren't born to infect you body wid chemicals that take you outside of yourself. You weren't born for any of that. You were born to glorify God and live happy and abudant life.And if you aren't living that way , it's simply because at some poin , you fell. But now forget the past... it's time to get up and start living the life you were born to live.....!!

EvErYbOdY's TaKe

Everybody was asked to do it.Everybody was sure that somebody would do it.Anybody could have done it.But nobody did it.Somebody got angry about that because it was everybody's job.Everybody thought that anybody could do it.Nobody realised that Everybody wouldn't do it. It ended up that everybody blamed Somebody when actually nobody blamed anybody.....!!

oVeR

                   Feelin bad
                 I'm on the road
                 where nobody goes
                 still got a spark on my face
                 which I let it show....!
Does it has to be this way-e-aaa...!!
                All I see in me is
                Something i can't be....
CUZZZ....... Its over
I have nothing left
My charm is blown away
I have nothing left
Except my Broken-Heart.....!
cuzzz its over..
My bad My bad my bad...
 MY bad my bad my bad....its over
                     Is anyone there
                     can hear me
                     you have a life
                     so take this chance
                    dont miss this stance
         and make it happen what ever u want too....
                   but u can't go wrong...
                   My bad my bad...!!
                    and its over..!!

              Every step of every
              person's life is either
              weighed down or lifted up
              by those they love and those who love them.

              You may be disapointed if you
              failed but, you are ''DOOMED''
              If you don't try.

              No one can predict,or control the future
              however,the more clearly you imagine
              what you want to see happen,plan for it
              and do something today to help it happen,
              the less anxious you are in the present
              and the more the future
                     is known to you....

              Judge yourself by what you feel
              capable of doing,while others judge
              you by what you have already done....

             The real enjoyment lies not in success but
             in your toil to achieve it...

     
               

ThE dEaD!

My heart is beating. I run....faster...and faster! Ican't see,but I know something is after me.I force my legs to move faster.But a boney hand grabs my shoulder.He's caught me! I scream--- and wake up!
A terrifying DREAM. I've dreamt it ever in my life. when i was a kid,there were thick woods behind our home.In the middle of the woods stood a tall, huge ROCK. All the neighbours believed that a DEAD BODY was burried beneath them.
From then i started to dream about these stones.I see them to shake and i see decayed body climb out from under and stagger towards my house,groaning..
''I'm comming to get you, charlie I'm comming to get you!''
                                    THE STORY BEGINS......
                WELCOME TO MY NIGHT MARE....!!
I was on a tree branch. I tightned my grip on the trunk and lookd at the kids on the ground.I suddenly felt dizzy. grinning faces became a blur..
''what's wrong, charlie??'' I heard Travis call.
''Need a ladder to get down??''
''I -- I'm okay,'' I stammered. But i wasn't okay. I told to myself, i'd climbed halfway somehow and now there's no way i could get down.
''should I call the fire department?'' travis shouted.I heard the other kids laugh the way they always do. And then travis strated the familar chant.
''charlie the wimp! charlie the wimp! and this continued for a long time... I wanted to shut my hands over my ears,so that i couldn't hear them. But i couldn't let go my hands off the trunk. I hugged it even more tightly,my body was shaking,I shut my eyes and gutted my teeth. I hated them and I hated travis,even thought he was my besst best friend....but most of all i hated my self for being such a jerk, coward and for being charlie the wimp!
''Stop it!'' I shouted.''Stop it!'' I shook a fist at them and lost my balance and i started to slide down the trunk. My skin peeled off my hands, my shirt tore and I slide to the ground,landed hard on my knees.
''Wow. let's see you do that again!'' travis said. my hands were bleading. I wiped off the dirt and removed leaves from my hair and Yelled ''give me a break'.''
But he never did...He was always daring me,chalenging me to do dangerous things...and always showing off in front of other kids,he was brave and i was coward... and I hated the most.!
THE  next morning I got to school a little late.I stepped into the class room and stared at the board. someone had drawn a tree with me hanging at end and a little kitten at the other end....undernead, it said
          WHICH ONE IS THE SCARED--CAT???....
Soon i turned aroud and found everyone laughing at me, and I knew I couldn't take any more of this... I knew i had to do something... But what??....
A few days later ,we were taken to the woods.Mr.DUKE, our teacher,was leading the class to collect insects and some sort of leaves...
As i following the path, travis came up to me, grining as always.''dare you to swim the creek'', he said. I knew it didnt rained in week,so I rolled my eyes , Ha ha ha... very funny I said that the creek was just a mud bog.
Mr.Duke announced.I want everything setup, keep to the path.'' He then hurried away. our shoes crunched over the dry ground. The sunlight prickled on my back of my neck. The path curved through a grassy clearing. I shifted my bag on to my shoulders and saw a small wodden shed at the side.. what was lying on the grass in front of the shed? it was hard to focus in broad day sunlight.

''Hey!'' I took off running. ''Hey!''
I stopped a few feet away from the shed and stared at the man lying on the ground. He lay stiffly with his arms and legs straight. his face was covered with mask and I could hardly see his face.....
''Hey!'' I called to the others, my voice was loud and steady
I waved widly.''Hey--come here! Hurry!''
The whole class came running. They stopped when they saw the body lying on the grass... Everyone at once
''Is he alive??''
''Why is he wearing a mask??''
''What happned to him??''
''It -- Its a DEAD BODY,'' I stammered.''I dont believe it.I stared at the body with open mouth.''someone-hurry! go get Mr.Duke!'' a girl yelled. But no one moved. I guess we were all too shocked and horrified.
Soon then travis came beside me,''charlie'', he said loudly, loud enough for everyone to hear,''charlie,I dare you to remove the mask from the man's face...!
''Huh?'' I took a step back as i was horrified
What ''touch a dead body?''
Silence all around. I could feel that all eyes were on me. I stared at travis then at the dead body.I swallowed and took a deep breath. ''Okay!'' I said, swallowing again.''Okay.Okay I can do it. No big deal--right??'' i said it to myself. I took a small step towards the body,then another, a few kids gasped ''Is he really going to touch it??''  My hands trembled as I reached for the MASK!
My hand began to shiver.. with a sharp tug,i started to pull the   MASK over the face...And the dead man's hand shot up and wrapped around my wrist.
''Ohhhhh.''  A low moan escaped my throat. Behind me came the horrified cries and screams of the others. The dead man's finger tightened around my arm, I couldnt even move. Staring at me with those black dead eyes, he opned his mouth and said,    ''Let... the... dead.. rest!'' The dead man repeated again ''Let...the...dead...rest!''
I turned around and saw other were screaming and crying.
''Travis--HELP ME!'' I shouted.''Travis-Please! Help me!''
travis face was pale with fear. after a moment he spung away and took off, running into the woods. A few kids ran after him.The rest ran behind travis and few others in other direction into the woods. I squeezes the deam man's  hand and tugged them off then i grabed his head and banged and twisted it hard on the ground..The other kids stared at me with wide open eyes.''I'm okay call Mr.Duke i shouted,hurry! they took off eager to get away. I watched them until they disappear in the woods....
Then i turned to the body on the ground.''They are gone,Uncle Jake. You can get up.'' I told to him.''Thank's a lot.It worked perfectly. ''They'll never call me the Wimp!''
Uncle jake sat up and took of the mask.he mopped the sweat off his forehead.''charlie, you play a kind of rough,'' he said.
''Sorry,'' I replied.''I guess I got a little caried away. I wanted to make it look real.
Uncle jake was my best uncle. He was really funny and he loved practical jokes.He was always did his white eyeball trick at the dinner table, Last week i asked him to help me out. i said thank's again ''We really scared them, didn't we?''
Uncle Jake nodded,and smiled. ''He whispered Bye Charlie.'' I said good-bye. Then i watched him vanish in the woods.
 I ran all the way home after school in excitment, and bursting through the kitchen door. I couldnt wait to tell mom about the trick Uncle Jake and I played on Travis and other kids.... But i stopped when I saw tears rolledd down her face. ''charlie. I'm sorry,'' she said softly.''So sorry...''
''Sorry? Mom, whats wrong??''
''I have a bad new,'' she said whiping her tears. ''It--- It's your uncle Jake. He died.''
''I suddenly fell cold all over. ''died? when??''
''last night,'' Mom said. sometimes last night I.......I just heard.''
''But-- Mom wraped her arms around me. ''I'm so sorry, charlie. I know you two were very close.I know you thought him as a friend.''
My head was spinning. I pressed my face agains't her wet cheeks.
''Yes,'' I whispered.''Yes. He was a very good friend.''
                                                    THE END !!

DrEaM

I have a drea, a song loosing
to help me cope with anything
even if you fail believe in angels
 when i know the time is right for me
 i cross the street
 i cross the stream
i chase my dreams,to help me through reality
my destination,pusing through the darkness
 still therz another mile
  DaRe tO dReAm.....
just dream, dream, dream....
Dream takes ous where we wish tooo..
so, makeup your mind to dream about
the dream land you wanted to goooo......
but yeah, dream are not the dream that we dream at night and forget in the mornin light.....
dream should never remain a DrEaM...
tryn achieve it..
DARE TO DREAM
just dream, dream, DREAM....!!
 

BReEzE !!

                           Who are you
                            who touch my cheek
                            make me sleep and
                            gentely passes by
                what is this that makes my hair fly
                            who has seen
                            wo has seen the breea!!
                            neither you nor I
                But when the leaves hang trembling
                the wind is passing through
                          who as seen the breeze
                           neither you nor I
               you are very warm
               your are my smoothing balm
               you are invisible sometimes
               as if you hav gone old
               you are quick like chasing your foe!
               you have a majestic might
               you whisper, which i always want to
                hear
               you brighten me very much
                   but your just a breeze....
             bReEzE...... BrEeZe...... bReEzE.....!!

 

                                          SOLO AGAIN......!!
you speak to me in your head
i hear the melody, but its so
hard to see..... what's wrong for me...
i cant tell you the truth cuz therz nothing
but your gonna get away with this......
            i can't belive this
             i fell for this
            fell tho the bottom of your soul
            could'tthink you could go so low
           look at what's done,we're loosing
    but, you've got my back and i'm planning to go .....solo again
here you go again, couldnt find me untill
when ,you thought you'd get my back....  ye-eah
i'd rather walk alone, than walk around with you on my arms.... and now i admit that..................
         we're done......
try your luck catch me if you can..!!

When you meet someone better than yourself,
turn your thoughts to becoming his equal.
When you meet someone not as good as you are,
look within and examine your own self
Confucius

I look at the world, and there is nothing to think... nothing to say...
nothing to do... nothing to feel... but gratitude.

It is common sense to take a method and try it; if it fails,
admit it frankly and try another. But above all, try something.

Never mistake motion for action.

Once the game is over, the king and the pawn go back into the same box.

What lies behind us and what lies before us
are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.

In the beginner's mind there are many possibilities,
but in the expert's there are few.

The eye, with which I see God, sees me;
my eye and God's eye is one eye, one seeing
one realizing and one love

Heaven never helps men who will not act.
Sophocles

Restless man's mind is,
So strongly shaken
In the grip of the senses...
Truly I think
The wind is no wilder.

Adversity introduces a man to himself.
Anonymous

In music, in the sea, in a flower, in a leaf, in an act of kindness...
I see what people call God in all these things.

The important thing is not to stop questioning.
Curiosity has its own reason for existing.
One cannot help but be in awe when he contemplates
the mysteries of ...

             

Never know

No one will ever know

There's this girl in the mirror, I wonder who she is. Sometimes I think I know her and sometimes I wish I did. There is a story in her eyes, lullabies, and goodbye. When she's looking back at me I can tell...she's hurting inside.  It's getting colder now and the darkness consumes me. Depression is slowly creeping up. Maybe one day you'll actually know me...  Never underestimate the pain of a person because the truth is everyone is struggling. It's just some people hide it better than others.  She smiles with all that she has left, yet tears are left un-dried. And though she's got so much to say, she bottles it up inside. If you look past her broken eyes to a shadow no one sees, a disguise so you won't recognize, the girl is really me...  There's nothing more depressing than having it all and still feeling sad.  I'm tired of being nice to people who don't give a shit about me.  I'm just a messed up girl living in a messed up life in a messed up world. Welcome to where being me is -*Never Enough*-  Sometimes the pain's too strong to bare...and life gets so hard you just don't care. You feel so alone you just sit and cry...every second you wish you could try.....!!  Then you start thinking who would care...if one day they woke up-and you weren't there.  I could go on with my day and act like everything is okay. But as my life goes on it hurts more in every way.  She can't hide no matter how hard she tries, her secret disguised behind the lies. And at night she cries away her pride, with eyes shut tight staring at her inside...., all her family asking is she alright. All she wants to do is get rid of this hell, well all she's got to do is stop kiddin herself. She can only fool herself for so long...You'll just never know...soo many emotions I choose not to show..  Know what it's like ........ How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside, to try to kill the pain on the inside. I've been weak and I've been strong. I've been thru the fire and I've been thru the storm. Try to do right and I know I do wrong.  try to correct it with no more hurt and no more tears, there will be no more pain and no more fears. No more people in here are  sincere. So smile for me when I'm no longer here.Just because her eyes don't tear doesn't mean her heart doesn't cry. And just because she comes off strong, doesn't mean there's nothing wrong.  I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I don't know what I wanna see. My world use to be worth living for, and now it's hard enough just to be me. I'm going to smile...and make you think I'm happy...I'm going to laugh...so you don't see me cry...and even if it kills...I'm going to smile.I'm screwing up every little good thing I ever try to do.......

we make the dragons as we make the gods, because we need them,because somewere deep in our hearts,we recognise that a world without them is a world not living in...... No ,i would not want to live in a world without dragons,as i would not want to live in a world without magic, for that a world without mystery,and that is a world without faith...!!