SlOwLy...!!

Slowly drowining in my sorrows
Wishing things would be better tomorrow
Feeling like I'm in an ocean of doubt and despair,
Gradually sinking and gasping for air
Knowing life is not a light switch, you can flip on and off
Simply sitting and accepting I have to carry on
Trying to keep my sanity and composure intact out of fear oh how
Those close to me, might react.
Fears of inadequacy as a human, as a women , burry themselves deep in my head
As I make a foolish attempt to hav a good night's rest in my lumpy bed.
Due to the fact that there are others out there ten times better than I ,
Makes me afraid and let out defeated signs, since it seems like things
Will always be this way...,
Its frustrating because I hav to go through it day after day
Yet , when my boundries are more than I can bare,
I can atleast take comfort in those who really care.
You know who you are , and so do I
That knowledge keeps me from going over the edge ,
From giving up and giving in....!!