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InSiDe OuT...!!

People only see what I let them see....!!

Outside lives a girl with a smile that will brighten up the room,
Yet inside hides a girl with a frown full of despair.
Outside lives a girl with eyes full of joy that brings you to ease,
Yet inside hides a girl shedding tears of sadness.
Outside lives a girl with beautiful laugh that's contagius,
Yet inside hides a girl screaming her lungs out in unwanted anger.
Outside lives a girl with the personality everyone envies,
Yet inside hides a girl full of insecurities and shame.
Outside lives a girl who is fearless and tough,
Yet inside hides a weak girl who lives in fear.
Outside lives a girl full of life,
Yet inside hides a girl full of pain,wanting to die.
Outside lives a girl with perfect image,
Yet inside hides a girl with regrets and mistakes.
Outside lives a girl of innocence,
Yet inside hides a girl with tremendous guilt.
Outside lives a girl with goals and aspirations,
Yet inside lives a girl lost in confusion.
What you see on the outside is my personal disguise,
What hides underneath you can't even begin to imagine....

 

ThE mAsK..!!

I was once sad and lonely ,
Having nobody to comfort me ,
So I wore a mask that always smiled ,
To hide my feelings behind a lie .
Before long , I had many friends ,
With my mask , I was one of them .
But deep inside , I still felt empty ,
Like I was missing a part of me.
Nobody could hear my cries at night
For I designed my task to hide the lie.
Nobody could see the pain I was feeling
For I designed my mask to be laughing.
Behind all the smiles were the tear
And behind all the comfort were the fears.
Everything you think you see,
Wasn't everything there was to me.
Day by day ,
I was slowly dying
I couldn't go on ,
There was something missing..
Untill now I'm still searching
For the thing that'll stop my crying.
For someone who'll erase my fears,
For the person who'll wipe my tears.
But till then I'll keep on smiling.
Hiding behind this mask I'm wearing.
Hoping one day I can smile ,
I'll then, I'll be here.... waiting.

WhErE eVeR u Go...!!

Where every u go ill follow you...
like you shadow , you never knew
This time i would never make the
 Mistake like before...
Givin you the third degree
Takin you through it
I told you i got what i want
And i ain't tryin to hear nothing else
But just following you around
This time i can't let you go
This time i did it
But i got these feelings
How am i supposed to know...
And let my weakness show
May be it cause me to miss this 1st
Chance at real lovee.....

As the sunlight slowly faded way, the city light offed one by one Fading on the outside. and casting a shadow on the inside.
As the time passes by the darkness came closer and closer spreading Its shadow across the city as much I struggles underneath the Blanket.....
My fears came alive and tears up the mask that I had covered all Day long. fears that tore me frome the inside comes alive, Tormenting me every single night , sometimes I wishes I was dead.
Surrounded with many, yet isolated and alone. I try to reach out to People but succeed in grasping just empty air...
Struggling to reach, I plung myself into darkness for it's the only Place to cope with all this, I give up and cry myself to sleep.
It's tiresome to want something you don't have, and each morning I Wake up with loneliness by my side.... each day I walk with the Presence in my footsteps, each night it lies hand in hand with my Insomnia....
Sometimes I think
Have I become INVISIBLE?? or have I become just an Imagination?
They cry on my shoulders and I soaked up their tears, asking for Nothing in return..... but when I neede someone , where did they all gooo???